The Heart of the Matter

I really wish I had kept up with this blog while living in Australia. Though, I think I pulled away from it because we were so bored and unhappy there. As therapeutic as it might have been for me at the time, it would have been a disaster for Derek. Even now, I won't put our whole story out there. Those of you who know it, know it, and those of you don't, well, feel free to contact me. I will say that as events unfolded and people showed their true colors and as they did we were always shocked. Though, towards the end I'm not sure why. Some people are just aren't good people, and some events in your life are just necessary for growth.

Now being back in the States since September, I've come to understand that we really did have some great things and wonderful friends over there. I hope that the negative feelings about the experience continue to fade as forgiveness continues to grow within me.

The song Heart of the Matter says it beautifully, 

" The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness.
Forgiveness."

We now miss our wonderful, beautiful friends; Laura and Eddie, Leah and Warren, Emma, Jude, Peter and June, Heather and Dan and their gorgeous children, Celeste and her family, and Miss January. We miss the Spice of Life, and familiar faces. We miss the small school Landon went to, the great beer, the way we ate out at least once a day. We miss the fact that Derek didn't have to market himself; patients just walked into his Chiropractic office. I don't think we ever really understood how hard it would be here just to get people in the door. We miss having a car.

And though, we do miss things about Australia, I'm very happy with where we are now. I love the States. The move really made me more patriotic and more proud to be an American. It made me realize that I have to be within a reasonable hour flight to my family. 15 is just to long a flight and too expensive!

So with this adventure behind us, a new one begins, as it always does. People move forward, and one with life, as we are. I'm very grateful for the experience, I learned so much about people, the world, my family and myself. Time to move on...